Acceptance

Acceptance has only one path. We either accept or we don’t. There is no in-between. We would only be standing still if not for acceptance. Who we are and acceptance of that enables us to move forward instead of leaving ourselves behind. I find mental health treatment only succeeds when the condition is accepted. Acceptance …

26th & 27th September

When you are a parent you worry a lot. When you are a parent and live with anxiety then the worrying doubles and triples. I would describe it as a constant attempt to prepare yourself for the worst possible scenario. It's simple. You imagine the worst possible outcome you do everything to prevent it. It …

Triggers

Triggers; just like the trigger of a gun that was never pulled. I tell myself that if the trigger was pulled a flag will pop out with a flag saying “BANG!” That is how I get through that trauma now. However, I do not know for sure. Everyone seems to believe that the gun was …

Working Parent

First of all, I want to go home. I don't want to be at work. I want to be at home with my baby who has a cold and is teething. Life is difficult and we have gotten bills to pay. I feel like I have been up and down with a cold. It has …

Germs = Cold

We had spent almost an entire weekend fighting a nasty cold. We still managed to go swimming feeling fairly well. Unfortunately, it triggered an avalanche of cold related symptoms. It was still worth going because in the end of the day a common cold is not the end of the world and I refuse to …

20th September 2019

Another day is here and it's Friday. P is looked after by nan nan when papa John and I are at work. We wake P up in the morning. We get her dressed so she can spend some time with us before we leave for work. Seeing her content with a big grin on her …

19th September 2019

I'm sitting on the sofa with our cat Mittens ( P loves him so much and he seems to appreciate extra attention from a little human being), our other cat Meg is asleep on our bed. She hibernates in our bedroom, she also likes to sit on Papa John's face... I often ask myself if …

18th September 2019

I wanted to wake up at 5am to exercise because 7 months after giving birth to P I still carry a kangaroo pouch or A TYRE😆 I'm questioning my mental wellbeing when it comes to my postpartum body. I thought I was fat before I was pregnant... Yes.... Ha. Ha. Ha. What do I look …

Maternity Leave Ends

Going back to work after maternity leave fills me with dread and sorrow.  I'm not looking forward to being away from my daughter missing out on her developmental milestones during the day. I know she will be in good hands looked after by nan, myself and my partner but I'm her mother. I feel that …