Mind & Body

Your mind comes first and body follows after. If ones mind is in a bad state the body will deteriorate. I have neglected both of them over the years mistreating & abusing them mentally and physically. I feel like I have hit the rock bottom again. As a working mother I try to tackle multiple …

New Reality

I look at you and I can't believe that you are my daughter. I feel overwhelmed. I don't know what to think or how to identify all the feelings which are flooding me through a broken dam of life. Epidural still works wonders therefore I can't feel any pain ( until 1 day later haha). …

Postpartum Body

I'm 8 months postpartum and I still have 1.5 stone to loose to be pre- pregnancy weight. I used to think that I was FAT before I got pregnant. During pregnancy I put on 5 stones. I've lost 3.5 stones since giving birth and I'm learning how to love my body and myself again. I'm …

Postpartum Body Image

It's been a rollercoaster of emotions recently. One side of me appreciates being back at work and the other side of me despises it to its very core. I miss spending days with P, I miss being with her and I'm annoyed that I waste my time & energy on dealing with various situations at …

My Pride & Joy

I might be tired. I might be overworked. I might be anxious after a whole day at work. But when I enter the house and see my precious baby girl everything negative disappears and goes away. I'm able to distingush between what's important and what's trivial. I'm forever grateful for my daughter enabling me to …

Breaking Back

Exactly, I have been dealing with 'breaking back', back pain, excruciating pain which drives me crazy. I had dealt with sciatica near the end of my pregnancy, went into labour, had an epidural (due to complications and because I just couldn't take the pain anymore, to be exact, after 48 hours of being in labour …

26th & 27th September

When you are a parent you worry a lot. When you are a parent and live with anxiety then the worrying doubles and triples. I would describe it as a constant attempt to prepare yourself for the worst possible scenario. It's simple. You imagine the worst possible outcome you do everything to prevent it. It …

Working Parent

First of all, I want to go home. I don't want to be at work. I want to be at home with my baby who has a cold and is teething. Life is difficult and we have gotten bills to pay. I feel like I have been up and down with a cold. It has …

Germs = Cold

We had spent almost an entire weekend fighting a nasty cold. We still managed to go swimming feeling fairly well. Unfortunately, it triggered an avalanche of cold related symptoms. It was still worth going because in the end of the day a common cold is not the end of the world and I refuse to …